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laurenella

PHILADELPHIA/PA
Joined: 04/24/07
Posts: 2774

February 23rd, 2008 - 8:46 PM

So I can realize how trivial mine are....

Lacking

ROSEVILLE/CA
Joined: 02/06/08
Posts: 418

February 23rd, 2008 - 8:57 PM

i can't stop thinking about how i regret everything,
but while thats going on
i can't stop telling myself to move on,
but i can't,
but i need to,
but i can't,
but i need to,
and so on.

laurenella

PHILADELPHIA/PA
Joined: 04/24/07
Posts: 2774

February 23rd, 2008 - 8:59 PM

lacking i need more detail. too vague.

Peachsalsa

DUMFRIES/VA
Joined: 02/18/08
Posts: 110

February 23rd, 2008 - 8:59 PM

The day before the day before yesterday, I bought Very Vanilla Silk soymilk instead of the usual Vanilla (in an attempt to do something bold, daring, and adventurous) . It tastes too sweet, and I bought the BIG carton this time.
I also own a really ugly pair of lacrosse goggles now too.

I hope that puts things in perspective for you.

laurenella

PHILADELPHIA/PA
Joined: 04/24/07
Posts: 2774

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:02 PM

Peachsalsa Said:

The day before the day before yesterday, I bought Very Vanilla Silk soymilk instead of the usual Vanilla (in an attempt to do something bold, daring, and adventurous) . It tastes too sweet, and I bought the BIG carton this time.
I also own a really ugly pair of lacrosse goggles now too.

I hope that puts things in perspective for you.

i bet you could make ugly goggles look adorable. p.s. LACROSSE!! yr awesome.

Peachsalsa

DUMFRIES/VA
Joined: 02/18/08
Posts: 110

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:07 PM

laurenella Said:

Peachsalsa Said:

The day before the day before yesterday, I bought Very Vanilla Silk soymilk instead of the usual Vanilla (in an attempt to do something bold, daring, and adventurous) . It tastes too sweet, and I bought the BIG carton this time.
I also own a really ugly pair of lacrosse goggles now too.

I hope that puts things in perspective for you.

i bet you could make ugly goggles look adorable. p.s. LACROSSE!! yr awesome.

Nah...they swallow up my adorable, lacrosse-playing face =P

So what is this "trivial" problem of yours?

robotsonbabylon

SUQUAMISH/WA
Joined: 11/10/07
Posts: 2461

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:09 PM

THIS GIRL I AM TRYING TO HOOK UP WITH IS BUSY TONIGHT AND I AM WONDERING IF I SHOULD HAVE WAITED TO CALL HER INSTEAD OF THE DAY AFTER SHE I SCORED HER NUMBER, I NEED TO WRITE A THESIS WHICH I HAVE NOT REALLY STARTED, I EAT WAY TO MANY COOKIES, AND MY ELECTRIC BILL IS WAY TO HIGH BECAUSE MY ROOMMATE GOT A HOT TUB.

BUT IF THAT GIRL DOES CALL BACK, THE 1ST WILL BE SOLVED, I WILL BE GLAD TO HAVE A HOT TUB I'LL BE EATING PUSSY INSTEAD OF COOKIES, AND I WONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT MY THESIS.

jubs

SANFORD/FL
Joined: 04/24/07
Posts: 4976

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:11 PM

THIS TIME LAST YEAR I HAD BABY HANDS (EXCEPT 4 CALLUSES ON FINGER TIPS FROM ROCKING OUT)
NOT NO MORE. NOW I HAS QUASI GUY HANDS. FROM WASHING GAY BUTTWHORE DISHES FOR HUNDREDS OF HOURS

Lacking

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Joined: 02/06/08
Posts: 418

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:13 PM

laurenella Said:

lacking i need more detail. too vague.

2 years ago, i had everything, great job, great lady friend, great friends, i was content,
then i went on tour with my band for 4 months. when i got home everything was different, everyone changed,
nobody was legit anymore, nobody was friends anymore, nobody liked each other, thats were i lost all my friends. lame

then whilest i was out, i got greedy, all the attention i was given for being on a lame o scenester band went to my head, i dumped my girlfriend so i wouldn't feel guilty on the road, got home, i thought ok w/e i'll apologize and get her back,
wrong, she doesn't love me anymore, biggest mistake of my life,
she's over me, i'm not over her, and i only realized it when i got home and actually had to see what i'd just threw away,

then i lost my job because i left for 4 months, then came a couple public intox's and driveing while suspended tickets,
then i just disowned everyone for no apparent reason and told everyone to fuck off,
slept in my car till summer ended and then went and slept in my sister's basement,
got some shitty half rate bitch job at ruby tuesday, quit, too much fighting,
got some shittier job at a motel 8 next to my sis's house because my car was impounded, quit, i don't dig maid work.
finally got my old job back, but at the cost of at least 4 grand,
never going to get the girl i spent my entire teenage life with, since i was a dumb greedy little filipino king midas

,i now work 6 days a week for 8 hours to pay off debt, and then come home and sit on moc and listen to music,
and since the day i realized what stupid idiotic mistake i made 2 years ago, all i think about is how i wish i could just get out of this disgusting cycle in my head of "fuck you jeffrey alva barkalow, you ruined your own fucking life, live with it" argued with "theres nothing I can do about this other than tuck it in that little spot that stings a bit and then move on"

laurenella

PHILADELPHIA/PA
Joined: 04/24/07
Posts: 2774

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:15 PM

I don't get girls. I personally don't get their logic a lot of the times. I think its because I don't hang out with them in droves and do girly things. I'm sure some girls have rules about phone calls. Rules are stupid.

Sucks you have to work on your thesis, and I can relate to the bills, at the very least you have cookies.

So far you win.

Lacking

ROSEVILLE/CA
Joined: 02/06/08
Posts: 418

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:15 PM

laurenella

PHILADELPHIA/PA
Joined: 04/24/07
Posts: 2774

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:16 PM

jubs Said:

THIS TIME LAST YEAR I HAD BABY HANDS (EXCEPT 4 CALLUSES ON FINGER TIPS FROM ROCKING OUT)
NOT NO MORE. NOW I HAS QUASI GUY HANDS. FROM WASHING GAY BUTTWHORE DISHES FOR HUNDREDS OF HOURS

rough hands are sexy. so are gay butt whores

Lacking

ROSEVILLE/CA
Joined: 02/06/08
Posts: 418

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:17 PM

Merrrr
basically

Lacking

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Joined: 02/06/08
Posts: 418

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:20 PM

laurenella Said:

I don't get girls. I personally don't get their logic a lot of the times. I think its because I don't hang out with them in droves and do girly things. I'm sure some girls have rules about phone calls. Rules are stupid.

Sucks you have to work on your thesis, and I can relate to the bills, at the very least you have cookies.

So far you win.

i don't want to act like i'm in a shittier hole than you, because i'm not.
my problem is that i cant let it go, if i could let things go i'd feel better.
but i have that whole round robin thing going on in my head.
its trivial,

what about yourself?? whats bummin' you out??

robotsonbabylon

SUQUAMISH/WA
Joined: 11/10/07
Posts: 2461

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:26 PM

laurenella Said:

I don't get girls. I personally don't get their logic a lot of the times. I think its because I don't hang out with them in droves and do girly things. I'm sure some girls have rules about phone calls. Rules are stupid.

Sucks you have to work on your thesis, and I can relate to the bills, at the very least you have cookies.

So far you win.

Really, I should not be so bitchy. I mean being able to get this type of education is such a privilege. Yesterday I got to have dinner with two brilliant anthropologists and talk about racism, politics, and country music. So what am I bitching about?

laurenella

PHILADELPHIA/PA
Joined: 04/24/07
Posts: 2774

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:27 PM

Lacking Said:

laurenella Said:

lacking i need more detail. too vague.

2 years ago, i had everything, great job, great lady friend, great friends, i was content,
then i went on tour with my band for 4 months. when i got home everything was different, everyone changed,
nobody was legit anymore, nobody was friends anymore, nobody liked each other, thats were i lost all my friends. lame

then whilest i was out, i got greedy, all the attention i was given for being on a lame o scenester band went to my head, i dumped my girlfriend so i wouldn't feel guilty on the road, got home, i thought ok w/e i'll apologize and get her back,
wrong, she doesn't love me anymore, biggest mistake of my life,
she's over me, i'm not over her, and i only realized it when i got home and actually had to see what i'd just threw away,

then i lost my job because i left for 4 months, then came a couple public intox's and driveing while suspended tickets,
then i just disowned everyone for no apparent reason and told everyone to fuck off,
slept in my car till summer ended and then went and slept in my sister's basement,
got some shitty half rate bitch job at ruby tuesday, quit, too much fighting,
got some shittier job at a motel 8 next to my sis's house because my car was impounded, quit, i don't dig maid work.
finally got my old job back, but at the cost of at least 4 grand,
never going to get the girl i spent my entire teenage life with, since i was a dumb greedy little filipino king midas

,i now work 6 days a week for 8 hours to pay off debt, and then come home and sit on moc and listen to music,
and since the day i realized what stupid idiotic mistake i made 2 years ago, all i think about is how i wish i could just get out of this disgusting cycle in my head of "fuck you jeffrey alva barkalow, you ruined your own fucking life, live with it" argued with "theres nothing I can do about this other than tuck it in that little spot that stings a bit and then move on"

Heartbreak is the worst feeling imaginable. Write songs about it all.(the sappier the better chicks eat that shit up) Use the new songs to start a new band and meet a fresh new girl who feels like she can identify to you since shitty stuff just happened to her too...

Also I bet if you didn't go on tour things would still end up evolving/devolving. Teenage years are so fleeting and bittersweet...

laurenella

PHILADELPHIA/PA
Joined: 04/24/07
Posts: 2774

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:29 PM

robotsonbabylon Said:

laurenella Said:

I don't get girls. I personally don't get their logic a lot of the times. I think its because I don't hang out with them in droves and do girly things. I'm sure some girls have rules about phone calls. Rules are stupid.

Sucks you have to work on your thesis, and I can relate to the bills, at the very least you have cookies.

So far you win.

Really, I should not be so bitchy. I mean being able to get this type of education is such a privilege. Yesterday I got to have dinner with two brilliant anthropologists and talk about racism, politics, and country music. So what am I bitching about?

You are bitching about not getting yr cookies.

Peachsalsa

DUMFRIES/VA
Joined: 02/18/08
Posts: 110

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:29 PM

robotsonbabylon Said:

laurenella Said:

I don't get girls. I personally don't get their logic a lot of the times. I think its because I don't hang out with them in droves and do girly things. I'm sure some girls have rules about phone calls. Rules are stupid.

Sucks you have to work on your thesis, and I can relate to the bills, at the very least you have cookies.

So far you win.

Really, I should not be so bitchy. I mean being able to get this type of education is such a privilege. Yesterday I got to have dinner with two brilliant anthropologists and talk about racism, politics, and country music. So what am I bitching about?

I love talking about anthropology...but when I tell my friends the things we talk about in class (especially on religion and "race") they insist that I'm being brainwashed and try to talk me into taking econ instead .

robotsonbabylon

SUQUAMISH/WA
Joined: 11/10/07
Posts: 2461

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:33 PM

Peachsalsa Said:

robotsonbabylon Said:

laurenella Said:

I don't get girls. I personally don't get their logic a lot of the times. I think its because I don't hang out with them in droves and do girly things. I'm sure some girls have rules about phone calls. Rules are stupid.

Sucks you have to work on your thesis, and I can relate to the bills, at the very least you have cookies.

So far you win.

Really, I should not be so bitchy. I mean being able to get this type of education is such a privilege. Yesterday I got to have dinner with two brilliant anthropologists and talk about racism, politics, and country music. So what am I bitching about?

I love talking about anthropology...but when I tell my friends the things we talk about in class (especially on religion and "race") they insist that I'm being brainwashed and try to talk me into taking econ instead .

YEAH, RELIGION IS MY MAIN THING. AND ANTHROPOLOGY DEALS A LOT WITH POLITICAL ECONOMY TOO, SO I THINK ANTHROPOLOGY IS FAR SUPERIOR AND TAKES A MUCH MORE HOLISTIC APPROACH (CATCH PHRASE ALERT), UNLESS IT IS MONEY THAT YOU WANT. WHAT DO THEY THINK YOU ARE BEING BRAIN WASHED ABOUT?

laurenella Said:

Really, I should not be so bitchy. I mean being able to get this type of education is such a privilege. Yesterday I got to have dinner with two brilliant anthropologists and talk about racism, politics, and country music. So what am I bitching about?

You are bitching about not eating pussy.[/quote]

robotsonbabylon

SUQUAMISH/WA
Joined: 11/10/07
Posts: 2461

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:35 PM

laurenella Said:

You are bitching about not eating pussy.

Not so funny when you have to do it over.

MC-Hope

DUNELLEN/NJ
Joined: 02/15/08
Posts: 19

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:35 PM

I don't think I have what's called a sex drive. At all. For anyone. Kind of blows.

vanusempty

HARRISONBURG/VA
Joined: 04/24/07
Posts: 3935

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:35 PM

laurenella Said:

I don't get girls. I personally don't get their logic a lot of the times. I think its because I don't hang out with them in droves and do girly things..

ditto.

in any case my problem(s?) is/are probably about as trivial as yours are. got my yearly bonus and i just want to hold onto it and not spend it on nice things for myself cause i feel guilty about spending any money.
i really should be going to bed now, but i'm not.
i've been in virginia for three years now and i still have no friends. the other night my husband went out on his dinner break with one of his friends. and i though to myself "oh, how nice would it be if i call up one of my friends to go out to dinner when i get off of work!" (he works till nine and i get off at six). then it hit me: i really don't have anyone i could call. even just to go out to eat. and it sucks. and i'm pretty sure it's not just that i'm not trying. people in this town are just lame. i have yet to find a girl that i share any interests at all with. they're all like "omg college frat parties slut shopping. haha." and i'm just not. and it's at the point where there are no new people to meet. i mean, i work. that's about it. and i already know everyone from work... so it's kind of a dilemma. i dont know. maybe it's not a big deal, it just gets me really fucking down sometimes. no friends. fuck.
i have to work in the morning. fuck.

burning_monk

BRONX/NY
Joined: 04/24/07
Posts: 11423

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:38 PM

the largest problem i have right now is that i just discovered i may own a dime (.10) that is worth $650-$900 but i can't check because i am house sitting
so now i am sitting here wondering if i actually own a dime that is worth $650-900 or if it will turn out to be fail

burning_monk

BRONX/NY
Joined: 04/24/07
Posts: 11423

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:39 PM

and my throat is killing me from the flu and i think i have a shard of glass or plastic stuck in my face

MC-Hope

DUNELLEN/NJ
Joined: 02/15/08
Posts: 19

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:39 PM

burning_monk Said:

the largest problem i have right now is that i just discovered i may own a dime (.10) that is worth $650-$900 but i can't check because i am house sitting
so now i am sitting here wondering if i actually own a dime that is worth $650-900 or if it will turn out to be fail

But if it's a fail, it will be an epic fail. So that's not too bad

Peachsalsa

DUMFRIES/VA
Joined: 02/18/08
Posts: 110

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:42 PM

robotsonbabylon Said:

Peachsalsa Said:

robotsonbabylon Said:

laurenella Said:

I don't get girls. I personally don't get their logic a lot of the times. I think its because I don't hang out with them in droves and do girly things. I'm sure some girls have rules about phone calls. Rules are stupid.

Sucks you have to work on your thesis, and I can relate to the bills, at the very least you have cookies.

So far you win.

Really, I should not be so bitchy. I mean being able to get this type of education is such a privilege. Yesterday I got to have dinner with two brilliant anthropologists and talk about racism, politics, and country music. So what am I bitching about?

I love talking about anthropology...but when I tell my friends the things we talk about in class (especially on religion and "race") they insist that I'm being brainwashed and try to talk me into taking econ instead .

YEAH, RELIGION IS MY MAIN THING. AND ANTHROPOLOGY DEALS A LOT WITH POLITICAL ECONOMY TOO, SO I THINK ANTHROPOLOGY IS FAR SUPERIOR AND TAKES A MUCH MORE HOLISTIC APPROACH (CATCH PHRASE ALERT), UNLESS IT IS MONEY THAT YOU WANT. WHAT DO THEY THINK YOU ARE BEING BRAIN WASHED ABOUT?

I've heard you can get a lot of money with an a degree in anthro, corporate anthropologists are really hot now.

For example, I tell people that race doesn't exist, that it's a social construct, etc. They FREAK OUT, giving me all this crap about "That's not true! I'm white, he's Asian, you're mocha latte..." blahblahblah. Or marriage. We did a journal on marriage in creative writing, and I got started on mutual need fulfillment vs. love, everyone thinks i'm feeding them bullshit.

You are bitching about not eating pussy.[/quote][/quote]

forkimified

Ottawa
Joined: 04/24/07
Posts: 3257

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:42 PM

laurenella Said:

Heartbreak is the worst feeling imaginable. Write songs about it all.(the sappier the better chicks eat that shit up)

I've found that the best 'sappy' songs are ones made as jokes, using every cliche you can think of. the more you can fit in, the more the womens will think you're a very emotional person.

robotsonbabylon

SUQUAMISH/WA
Joined: 11/10/07
Posts: 2461

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:43 PM

burning_monk Said:

the largest problem i have right now is that i just discovered i may own a dime (.10) that is worth $650-$900 but i can't check because i am house sitting
so now i am sitting here wondering if i actually own a dime that is worth $650-900 or if it will turn out to be fail

um dude, why dont you use the interwebz? or is it the dime that you do not have access to?

vanusempty

HARRISONBURG/VA
Joined: 04/24/07
Posts: 3935

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:44 PM

GOD I AM EVEN FRIENDLESS ON THE INTERNET

burning_monk

BRONX/NY
Joined: 04/24/07
Posts: 11423

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:46 PM

robotsonbabylon Said:

burning_monk Said:

the largest problem i have right now is that i just discovered i may own a dime (.10) that is worth $650-$900 but i can't check because i am house sitting
so now i am sitting here wondering if i actually own a dime that is worth $650-900 or if it will turn out to be fail

um dude, why dont you use the interwebz? or is it the dime that you do not have access to?

it's the dime i don't have access to right now.

Lacking

ROSEVILLE/CA
Joined: 02/06/08
Posts: 418

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:46 PM

laurenella Said:

Lacking Said:

laurenella Said:

lacking i need more detail. too vague.

2 years ago, i had everything, great job, great lady friend, great friends, i was content,
then i went on tour with my band for 4 months. when i got home everything was different, everyone changed,
nobody was legit anymore, nobody was friends anymore, nobody liked each other, thats were i lost all my friends. lame

then whilest i was out, i got greedy, all the attention i was given for being on a lame o scenester band went to my head, i dumped my girlfriend so i wouldn't feel guilty on the road, got home, i thought ok w/e i'll apologize and get her back,
wrong, she doesn't love me anymore, biggest mistake of my life,
she's over me, i'm not over her, and i only realized it when i got home and actually had to see what i'd just threw away,

then i lost my job because i left for 4 months, then came a couple public intox's and driveing while suspended tickets,
then i just disowned everyone for no apparent reason and told everyone to fuck off,
slept in my car till summer ended and then went and slept in my sister's basement,
got some shitty half rate bitch job at ruby tuesday, quit, too much fighting,
got some shittier job at a motel 8 next to my sis's house because my car was impounded, quit, i don't dig maid work.
finally got my old job back, but at the cost of at least 4 grand,
never going to get the girl i spent my entire teenage life with, since i was a dumb greedy little filipino king midas

,i now work 6 days a week for 8 hours to pay off debt, and then come home and sit on moc and listen to music,
and since the day i realized what stupid idiotic mistake i made 2 years ago, all i think about is how i wish i could just get out of this disgusting cycle in my head of "fuck you jeffrey alva barkalow, you ruined your own fucking life, live with it" argued with "theres nothing I can do about this other than tuck it in that little spot that stings a bit and then move on"

Heartbreak is the worst feeling imaginable. Write songs about it all.(the sappier the better chicks eat that shit up) Use the new songs to start a new band and meet a fresh new girl who feels like she can identify to you since shitty stuff just happened to her too...

Also I bet if you didn't go on tour things would still end up evolving/devolving. Teenage years are so fleeting and bittersweet...

I don't write love songs, I HATE love songs,

all i have done is write moody droney sludge doom that just kind of tells its self how i want the world to end.

robotsonbabylon

SUQUAMISH/WA
Joined: 11/10/07
Posts: 2461

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:48 PM

vanusempty Said:

GOD I AM EVEN FRIENDLESS ON THE INTERNET

not true. but i might be moving to DC. i don't know if thats close or not -- because in my head the whole east coast is the size of arizona -- but if it is we will hang out. i mean if your husband is cool with that.

forkimified

Ottawa
Joined: 04/24/07
Posts: 3257

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:49 PM

vanusempty Said:

GOD I AM EVEN FRIENDLESS ON THE INTERNET

Everyone here loves you, but lacks the capacity to show it.

laurenella

PHILADELPHIA/PA
Joined: 04/24/07
Posts: 2774

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:52 PM

vanusempty Said:

laurenella Said:

I don't get girls. I personally don't get their logic a lot of the times. I think its because I don't hang out with them in droves and do girly things..

ditto.

in any case my problem(s?) is/are probably about as trivial as yours are. got my yearly bonus and i just want to hold onto it and not spend it on nice things for myself cause i feel guilty about spending any money.
i really should be going to bed now, but i'm not.
i've been in virginia for three years now and i still have no friends. the other night my husband went out on his dinner break with one of his friends. and i though to myself "oh, how nice would it be if i call up one of my friends to go out to dinner when i get off of work!" (he works till nine and i get off at six). then it hit me: i really don't have anyone i could call. even just to go out to eat. and it sucks. and i'm pretty sure it's not just that i'm not trying. people in this town are just lame. i have yet to find a girl that i share any interests at all with. they're all like "omg college frat parties slut shopping. haha." and i'm just not. and it's at the point where there are no new people to meet. i mean, i work. that's about it. and i already know everyone from work... so it's kind of a dilemma. i dont know. maybe it's not a big deal, it just gets me really fucking down sometimes. no friends. fuck.
i have to work in the morning. fuck.

I feel very similar actually. My boyfriend is off work probably with his friends. And I have to make a conscious effort to give him space because really he's my only close friend around here. (other than my few times a week drinking buddies)I'm too introverted to open up to new people since I'm sick of getting my hopes up or I don't really see the point. I think I'm slowly becoming agoraphobic. :(

So no don't downplay it. Shit's lonely.

forkimified

Ottawa
Joined: 04/24/07
Posts: 3257

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:53 PM

Lacking Said:

I don't write love songs, I HATE love songs,

all i have done is write moody droney sludge doom that just kind of tells its self how i want the world to end.

Well, if it doesn't attract the ladies, it'll least attract gloomy teenage boys...

laurenella

PHILADELPHIA/PA
Joined: 04/24/07
Posts: 2774

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:54 PM

Lacking Said:

laurenella Said:

Lacking Said:

laurenella Said:

lacking i need more detail. too vague.

2 years ago, i had everything, great job, great lady friend, great friends, i was content,
then i went on tour with my band for 4 months. when i got home everything was different, everyone changed,
nobody was legit anymore, nobody was friends anymore, nobody liked each other, thats were i lost all my friends. lame

then whilest i was out, i got greedy, all the attention i was given for being on a lame o scenester band went to my head, i dumped my girlfriend so i wouldn't feel guilty on the road, got home, i thought ok w/e i'll apologize and get her back,
wrong, she doesn't love me anymore, biggest mistake of my life,
she's over me, i'm not over her, and i only realized it when i got home and actually had to see what i'd just threw away,

then i lost my job because i left for 4 months, then came a couple public intox's and driveing while suspended tickets,
then i just disowned everyone for no apparent reason and told everyone to fuck off,
slept in my car till summer ended and then went and slept in my sister's basement,
got some shitty half rate bitch job at ruby tuesday, quit, too much fighting,
got some shittier job at a motel 8 next to my sis's house because my car was impounded, quit, i don't dig maid work.
finally got my old job back, but at the cost of at least 4 grand,
never going to get the girl i spent my entire teenage life with, since i was a dumb greedy little filipino king midas

,i now work 6 days a week for 8 hours to pay off debt, and then come home and sit on moc and listen to music,
and since the day i realized what stupid idiotic mistake i made 2 years ago, all i think about is how i wish i could just get out of this disgusting cycle in my head of "fuck you jeffrey alva barkalow, you ruined your own fucking life, live with it" argued with "theres nothing I can do about this other than tuck it in that little spot that stings a bit and then move on"

Heartbreak is the worst feeling imaginable. Write songs about it all.(the sappier the better chicks eat that shit up) Use the new songs to start a new band and meet a fresh new girl who feels like she can identify to you since shitty stuff just happened to her too...

Also I bet if you didn't go on tour things would still end up evolving/devolving. Teenage years are so fleeting and bittersweet...

I don't write love songs, I HATE love songs,

all i have done is write moody droney sludge doom that just kind of tells its self how i want the world to end.

didnt say it had to be love songs fool.

forkimified

Ottawa
Joined: 04/24/07
Posts: 3257

February 23rd, 2008 - 9:56 PM

laurenella Said:

vanusempty Said:

laurenella Said:

I don't get girls. I personally don't get their logic a lot of the times. I think its because I don't hang out with them in droves and do girly things..

ditto.

in any case my problem(s?) is/are probably about as trivial as yours are. got my yearly bonus and i just want to hold onto it and not spend it on nice things for myself cause i feel guilty about spending any money.
i really should be going to bed now, but i'm not.
i've been in virginia for three years now and i still have no friends. the other night my husband went out on his dinner break with one of his friends. and i though to myself "oh, how nice would it be if i call up one of my friends to go out to dinner when i get off of work!" (he works till nine and i get off at six). then it hit me: i really don't have anyone i could call. even just to go out to eat. and it sucks. and i'm pretty sure it's not just that i'm not trying. people in this town are just lame. i have yet to find a girl that i share any interests at all with. they're all like "omg college frat parties slut shopping. haha." and i'm just not. and it's at the point where there are no new people to meet. i mean, i work. that's about it. and i already know everyone from work... so it's kind of a dilemma. i dont know. maybe it's not a big deal, it just gets me really fucking down sometimes. no friends. fuck.
i have to work in the morning. fuck.

I feel very similar actually. My boyfriend is off work probably with his friends. And I have to make a conscious effort to give him space because really he's my only close friend around here. (other than my few times a week drinking buddies)I'm too introverted to open up to new people since I'm sick of getting my hopes up or I don't really see the point. I think I'm slowly becoming agoraphobic. :(

So no don't downplay it. Shit's lonely.

Never underestimate the public library as a venue for social interaction. Seriously. Do it up. You can find companionship by the help of the Dewey Decimal System. Find people with similar interests while trying to sort through three levels of alphabetical order.

Lacking

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February 23rd, 2008 - 9:56 PM

forkimified Said:

Lacking Said:

I don't write love songs, I HATE love songs,

all i have done is write moody droney sludge doom that just kind of tells its self how i want the world to end.

Well, if it doesn't attract the ladies, it'll least attract gloomy teenage boys...

nu metal mosh is so much cooler than hardcore mosh..

but for real i'm no lady's man, just a huge dick head.

robotsonbabylon

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February 23rd, 2008 - 9:59 PM

Peachsalsa Said:

robotsonbabylon Said:

Peachsalsa Said:

robotsonbabylon Said:

laurenella Said:

I don't get girls. I personally don't get their logic a lot of the times. I think its because I don't hang out with them in droves and do girly things. I'm sure some girls have rules about phone calls. Rules are stupid.

Sucks you have to work on your thesis, and I can relate to the bills, at the very least you have cookies.

So far you win.

Really, I should not be so bitchy. I mean being able to get this type of education is such a privilege. Yesterday I got to have dinner with two brilliant anthropologists and talk about racism, politics, and country music. So what am I bitching about?

I love talking about anthropology...but when I tell my friends the things we talk about in class (especially on religion and "race") they insist that I'm being brainwashed and try to talk me into taking econ instead .

YEAH, RELIGION IS MY MAIN THING. AND ANTHROPOLOGY DEALS A LOT WITH POLITICAL ECONOMY TOO, SO I THINK ANTHROPOLOGY IS FAR SUPERIOR AND TAKES A MUCH MORE HOLISTIC APPROACH (CATCH PHRASE ALERT), UNLESS IT IS MONEY THAT YOU WANT. WHAT DO THEY THINK YOU ARE BEING BRAIN WASHED ABOUT?

I've heard you can get a lot of money with an a degree in anthro, corporate anthropologists are really hot now.

For example, I tell people that race doesn't exist, that it's a social construct, etc. They FREAK OUT, giving me all this crap about "That's not true! I'm white, he's Asian, you're mocha latte..." blahblahblah. Or marriage. We did a journal on marriage in creative writing, and I got started on mutual need fulfillment vs. love, everyone thinks i'm feeding them bullshit.

You are bitching about not eating pussy.

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I sorta feel like i should be watching what I say here, considering your age and all, so don't quote any of my R rated comments plz.

I CANT FUCKING BELIEVE PEOPLE STILL BELIEVE IN RACE. ITS FUCKING STUPID. WHAT DOES EXIST ARE PROCESSES OF RACIALIZATION WHEREBY PEOPLE BECOME DEFINED AS THIS OR THAT RACE THROUGH CULTURAL PROCESSES. YET STILL, IN THIS COUNTRY, RACE IS AS POWERFUL AS EVER. THE LECTURE I WENT TO YESTERDAY (I will stop yelling!) was about how health and health disparities are racialized. Basically, victems of health problems get blamed for not going to see a doctor or not eating right or what ever because of some cultural values they supposedly have. But they don't say it because of "race" anymore, it African American culture, or Latino culture. Culture is the new race. They don't even look at lack of access to health care or the fact that some people are too poor to eat healthy. Its so fucked up.

There is some money in corporate anthropology. But in my experience, by the time you get done with a degree in anthropology you are so fucking pissed that you will not be able to bring yourself to work in that field.

Lacking

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February 23rd, 2008 - 10:04 PM

that was a pretty good rant...i learned something just now...

robotsonbabylon

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February 23rd, 2008 - 10:13 PM

Lacking Said:

that was a pretty good rant...i learned something just now...

MAYBE, BUT I WONDER IF THIS IS WHY I AM NOT GETTING LADIEZ?

Lacking

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February 23rd, 2008 - 10:14 PM

what do you mean this??

robotsonbabylon

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February 23rd, 2008 - 10:15 PM

I MEAN IS IT NERDY RANTS THAT KEEP ME FROM GETTING LAID?

Lacking

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February 23rd, 2008 - 10:19 PM

lol nah
isn't nerdy, just as attractive as typical "hot" is these days?

innocentlust

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February 23rd, 2008 - 10:40 PM

I have drunk Matt hitting on me, granted I'm drunk but he had sexzor with my so called best friend. Do you understand how much effort this took?

laurenella

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February 23rd, 2008 - 11:02 PM

robotsonbabylon Said:

I MEAN IS IT NERDY RANTS THAT KEEP ME FROM GETTING LAID?

if they are trying to get in yr pants and all you do is rantz then yez.

EnderWiggin

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February 23rd, 2008 - 11:03 PM

robotsonbabylon Said:

Lacking Said:

that was a pretty good rant...i learned something just now...

MAYBE, BUT I WONDER IF THIS IS WHY I AM NOT GETTING LADIEZ?

YOU'RE DOING IT WRONG

laurenella

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February 23rd, 2008 - 11:09 PM

You know what is a cool word? Mulatto.

robotsonbabylon

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February 23rd, 2008 - 11:12 PM

laurenella Said:

robotsonbabylon Said:

I MEAN IS IT NERDY RANTS THAT KEEP ME FROM GETTING LAID?

if they are trying to get in yr pants and all you do is rantz then yez.

USUALLY AT THIS POINT, I'M SPEECHLESS. BUT RIGHT BEFORE I COME I LIKE TO SAY "I LOVE YOU, I MEAN IF INSOFAR AS LOVE IS A SOCIAL CONSTRUCT THAT ENABLES ME TO BE A FULLY MODERN INDIVIDUAL ABLE TO ENGAGE IN BOTH WAGE LABOR CAPITALISM WHILE STILL DEVELOPING NETWORKS OF SOCIAL, POLITICAL, ECONOMIC, AND IDEOLOGICAL SUPPORT"

EnderWiggin

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February 23rd, 2008 - 11:12 PM

My current problems: I ate too much NY style pizza with jalapeños, antipasto salad, and excellent espresso brownies, and drank too many cups of coffee.

And now, my butthole is on fire.

And not just for Robotsbabylon this time, either.