Bloody Machete and Bodies Everywhere...

I dont know what evil is boiling inside me,but its taking control..i dream of torturing my classmates, the bad ones, i wish they would die slowly and painfully,and alone.i have such horrible thoughts in my head of ways to kill myself,or to get someone else to do it.suicide is not an easy way out,its the only peaceful way out.no one but you gets hurt and there is not much pain if you do it right.I wish the world was a nicer better place,where no one called you a whore or ugly or laughed at you or broke up with you for no reason.but i know the world will never be like that..it will always be a rathole with selfish lying treachorous men as the leaders of this damned planet.wars will continue,kids will still die,parents will kill eachother,and kids will kill eachother..why cant it stop?we live on the same planet!be nice to eachother or dont talk at all and stay away from one another!!! i want to stop having these murderous dreams about violently killing bullies with a machete, me standing in the room.all eyes fixated on me as i laugh while slicing up those bastards.blood and skin hanging from the pointy tip of my machete.my eyes are dilated,mouth wide open with a terrible screeching noise i guess is laughter.im laughing after scaring torturing and killing people,and i dont care about what i did..what the fuck is wrong with me?? i want to stop thinking about it, but i also enjoy the mere thought of my enemies cowering before me,crying for their lives..it makes me giggle with happiness..i think its some kind of sick game or some sort of horror movie...i dont understand!!why cant they just die and leave me alone!!!??those sons of bitches deserve to die!!!they deserve to those little brats!!!!!they should pay!!not me!!!