Alone on Christmas??

Today was the glorious holiday of Christmas, however the magic is truly gone. I recieved an iPod touch from an ex, in which I regifted an antique Cicely Mary Barker book to. As pathetic as that is, I went out and bought myself a new cell phone as a gift to myself.
Thinking to yourself, "how does this relate to the lack of magic on Christmas?" I will tell you. My mum left on the 23rd, and is in Hawaii getting married, in which I was not even invited, in fact, I hadn't the faintest idea she was even engaged; my sister told me...and to think that I am the one who actually goes home on the holidays! To continue on, my father is in Cairo, finishing up some business deal that just couldn't, under any circumstance be put off even one day. Therefore, I am here, in my apartment, where I can smell the lack of a Christmas tree, the lack of family and friends, and most of all the lack of Christmas spirit. People may not think much of the true character that Christmas brings out in one's self, however it does show some bad signs for me: I do not do well alone on the holidays.